Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Feelings

Poem:

Aren't you sick of hurting me?
With all those stupid lies you feed
Haven't you caused me enough pain?
Shattered hope and made my heart bleed

Aren't you sick of breaking promises
Setting my hopes so high
It's like you're playing some stupid game
How many more times are you gonna make me cry?

The biggest mistake belongs to me
I keep coming back for more
How much you mean to me
Is something I just can't ignore

You're like a drug that I'm addicted to
A Habit I can't break
But the side effects you're giving me
Are too much for me to take

Sometimes I get a little hope
That maybe you will change
For once just follow through
But I know it'll never be that way

Like a drug that I'm addicted to
This hurt I can't ignore
But again I'll make the biggest mistake
And I'll keep coming back for more

I did not write this poem, but its exactly how I feel right now. I feel sad, empty, and alone. I know my change was needed, but I never knew i'd loose so much more because of it. Maybe I don't need you, maybe I do. All I can say is, don't say you never knew me or that you don't know who I am. We were friends & I hope we still will be. Deny it or accept it. Your choice.