Some thoughts before you die..

So in English Class we're reading "A Lesson Before Dying." Well I can't really focus in English, so I wrote this poem. It, in a way, relates to the book & Jefferson, the main character. I thought it was a really good, reflective book. Comment on my poem ( :

What if I die today,
and leave this earth for good?
What if I die today,
have I done the best I could?

What if I died today,
would it matter how I dressed?
What if I died today,
have I done the very best?

What if I died today,
have I fufilled God's plan?
What if I died today,
would Jesus be my fan?

What if I died today,
would my grades have even mattered?
What if I died today,
would my friends and family be shattered?

What if I died today,
would how I looked remain?
What if I died today,
would everyone be in pain?

What if I die today,
because you never know..
When your time is coming
only God can should make you go.

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So yes, I know I haven't blogged in FOREVER, but my life has been kind of busy. I've been bouncing from one group to another, one party to another, and from one fight to another. I'm actually grateful for this. I love having many groups of friends. I have tons of people I can depend on and tons of people to talk to things about. One group I can have a blast with. The other, I could cry on their shoulders all night. One group I could be a dare devil. One group I could be a "goody-good angel." One group I can talk about sports all night. One group I can just be myself. Maybe this is a bad thing, maybe it's a good thing. I really do not know. Is it testing who I am? Is it a denial of self worth, personality, and life? I am unsure. Maybe I really don't know who I am. Maybe that's okay. Maybe its not. Will I ever find out? I know I said I hated this earlier, but things change. I guess it is just up to time to tell.