Life

Have you ever thought of life as a big test? Will you pass? Will you fail?
Life is tricky, it has many obsticles, and many possible answers.
Will you prepare for it and its adventures? Will you ignore it?
What will you find in it? How will you handle the outcomes?
It's up to you.
The outcomes are numerous.

101 in 1001

I got this idea from my friend Allison, so I decided to do my own. I don't have a lot of time on hand right now, so I wasn't very creative...

Here are my 101 goals in 1001 days.

Food

1. Not worry about the calorie or fat content

2. Eat 2 things I've never tried before. (0/2)

3. Find 5 new recipes and cook them for my family. (0/5)

4. Try foreign foods

5. Try 5 new fruits and veggies

6. Cook and entire Italian meal

7. Bake and decorate a cake

8. Go out to eat, and only order dessert.

9. Eat healthy and try making my own recipes

10. Make pizza from scratch.

Travel

11. Travel out of the United States.

12. Visit the Mall of America

13. Go on a cruise.

14. Travel by train

15. Go camping

16. Visit the beach while on a road trip with friends

17. Go on a helicopter

Entertainment

18. Go to five concerts.

19. Read 10 new books.

20. Watch 10 new movies.

21. Go rock climbing

22. Drive through a driver through and order 20 hamburgers and a diet coke

23. Go skiing

24. Go to a drive in theater.

25. Go zip lining, again (:

26. Have a marshmallow war.

27. See a play on Broadway

28. Go see a movie premiere at midnight.

29. Watch the sun rise and set

30. Go to the spa with some friends.

31. Go on a picnic with my family

32. Drive around in a nun costume and sing Gospel music

33. Build a snowman

34. Swim with dolphins.

35. Have a Grey's Anatomy marathon and watch all of the movies.

36. Visit the Zoo

37. Attend AVP

Fitness

38. Walk with my mom or friend once a week for an entire month.

39. Run a 5k

40. Do more toning exercises.

41. Work on Pilates

42. Build Muscle

43. Play Just Dance on Wii at least three times a week

Miscellaneous

44. Volunteer as much as I can

45. Meet a celebrity

46. Surprise my parents by taking them out/giving them a gift

47. Update my blog as often as I can

48. Get a job.

49. Engage in more activities and clubs

50. Go an entire day staying on task at school, hahahah

51. Take lots of pictures!

52. Go one week without getting on Facebook

53. Make myself happy, instead of always pleasing others

54. Learn sign language

55. Learn to French Braid.

56. Learn to play an instrument

57. Ride in a hot air balloon

58. Help out and talk to cancer kids

59. Write as many poems as I can

60. Start a collection of some type

61. Take an art class of some type

62. Save up for a car

Education

63. Be on the honor roll every quarter during high school.

64. Graduate high school in the top 50

65. Start college in either Physical Therapy or counseling

For others

66. Give a gift to a friend "just because"

67. Compliment a stranger.

68. Do a chore around the house even thought I'm not asked.

69. Do something nice for someone anonymously.

70. Make something for my friends just to be nice

71. Leave a 100% tip to a server.

72. Give my honest opinion

73. Save up $50 and donate it to a charity.

74. Volunteer at Ronal McDonald House. :D

75. Donate blood

76. Help in any way I can with feeding the hungry

77. Volunteer at retreats

For myself

78. Get a massage

79. Eat as I please and don't overwork my body

80. Get my hair highlighted

 81. Drive to the mall and just shop by myself.

82. Get my drivers license.

83. Get enough sleep

84. Get my cartilage pierced

85. Get my eyebrows waxed

86. Write a letter to myself to open in 10 years.

Spiritual

87. Find & read a book that impacts my life.

88. Pray every night before bed

89. Find a quote that I love and hang it on my wall.

90. Attend a retreat

91. Listen fully at Mass

92. Talk and volunteer and spiritual events

Organizational

93. Keep my room clean

94. Organize a huge collage and hang in on my wall

95. Go through and get rid of old clothes

Crafty

96. Make a shirt

97. Make a blanket out of old t-shirts

98. Make as many collages as I can

99. Take a pottery class

100. Sketch landscapes

101. Make ice cream

Ten things

Have you ever wanted to just do something spontanious? Outrageous? Silly? For no reason? Well, I have & I made a list of the top ten crazy weird things I want to do before I die. Some are quite funny (:

1. Swim in a big bowl of spaghetti
2. Jump into a pool of M&M's (yummy!)
3. Jump on a life-size marshmellow
4. Travel to every single country once
5. Try a food from every single country
6. Have a water gun fight with melted ice cream
7. Jump out of a plane/Skydiving
8. Travel to space
9. Go scubadiving
10. Learn as many languages as I can & try and talk to someone from that particular country

I know, some are very odd..but what can I say? I really hope I can accomplish atleast one of these top ten crazy things. What are your top ten things you want to do before you die?

2010 Reflection/ Journal

It's amazing how things change. It's amazing how people change. In the begining of 2010 I was still with my old gradeschool friends, afraid to explore and branch out. I was insecure and shy. I was unsure of who I was and what I wanted. I'm so glad i've changed. I can't say I fully love myself & everything around me, but I have learned to accept it. (Now just to accept myself as who I am).I really don't know what I would have done if I never would have met my new group of friends. I'm such a new person. I love my life and myself ten times more. I'm not afraid to try new things or explore. I'm more adventurous and creative. I can talk to anyone and do anything I want. Last year I NEVER would have danced at a party in front of guys, talked openly with adults or teachers, or even stood up for myself. I think part of this is maturing. I also part of it is  finding yourself and building self confidence. It helps when your around people who support you and you can trust. I'm not saying I don't miss my other friends or I couldn't trust them, cause I do/did..A LOT. Things just change.We still hangout and see each other, but it's not the same. What can I say? Maybe it happened for a reason?

So with that said, I think i'll spill one of my 2011 resolutions: BLOG(: I'm going to try and blog atleast 3-4 times a week about things i've learned, what's going on, or just whatever! I want to remember this year & make it the best! It might be poems, lyrics, thoughts, or even diary-like entries. Another resolution: BRANCH OUT EVEN MORE & MAKE THESE NEXT 2 YEARS THE BEST EVER. I want to get very involved and meet tons of new people. My most important resolution? Accept myself for who I am; I signed the body peace treaty. That's all i'm saying. I'm tired of treating myself like shit & in return feeling like shit. I've got enough to worry about. I'm young, why stress over stupid stuff like that now? I should be living life and feeling free. Right? My most most MOST important resolution is getting to know God better. I want to build a stronger, better relationship with him. I feel like i've really lost touch with God & my religion lately with everything i've been going through. I hope I can find him & strengthen my relationship/connection. That would greatly benefit me & my family. <3

What are your resolutions?

Well midterm exams are coming up...YUCKY. I'm just going to study my hardest & try my best. That's all anyone can ask for. I'm not going to over stress about such a little thing in my life. It's not worth it. The pain I went through last year wasn't worth it. I won't do it again. New year=better year. So far, so good.

You know what i've learned this past year? Life is too short to be anything but happy. Right? I should know that from losing my brother & grandpa. Love everyone. Forgive everyone. Live. Laugh. Love<3 Always try your best. Take nothing for granted. People change & things change, but God is always there. I'm so greatful for my family & my friends. I love them so much.

I can't blog much longer. I need a shower (I just ran-my way of relieving stress) & break is offically over. That means school tomorrow. Yay!..not. But I better get off and do some homework/study. I'll blog again soon.
Remember: Mistakes happen. Forgive, Forget, and move on. Live live without regrets.

Peace out!

Annabella Zee (:

Feelings

Poem:

Aren't you sick of hurting me?
With all those stupid lies you feed
Haven't you caused me enough pain?
Shattered hope and made my heart bleed

Aren't you sick of breaking promises
Setting my hopes so high
It's like you're playing some stupid game
How many more times are you gonna make me cry?

The biggest mistake belongs to me
I keep coming back for more
How much you mean to me
Is something I just can't ignore

You're like a drug that I'm addicted to
A Habit I can't break
But the side effects you're giving me
Are too much for me to take

Sometimes I get a little hope
That maybe you will change
For once just follow through
But I know it'll never be that way

Like a drug that I'm addicted to
This hurt I can't ignore
But again I'll make the biggest mistake
And I'll keep coming back for more

I did not write this poem, but its exactly how I feel right now. I feel sad, empty, and alone. I know my change was needed, but I never knew i'd loose so much more because of it. Maybe I don't need you, maybe I do. All I can say is, don't say you never knew me or that you don't know who I am. We were friends & I hope we still will be. Deny it or accept it. Your choice.

Some thoughts before you die..

So in English Class we're reading "A Lesson Before Dying." Well I can't really focus in English, so I wrote this poem. It, in a way, relates to the book & Jefferson, the main character. I thought it was a really good, reflective book. Comment on my poem ( :

What if I die today,
and leave this earth for good?
What if I die today,
have I done the best I could?

What if I died today,
would it matter how I dressed?
What if I died today,
have I done the very best?

What if I died today,
have I fufilled God's plan?
What if I died today,
would Jesus be my fan?

What if I died today,
would my grades have even mattered?
What if I died today,
would my friends and family be shattered?

What if I died today,
would how I looked remain?
What if I died today,
would everyone be in pain?

What if I die today,
because you never know..
When your time is coming
only God can should make you go.

Untitled

So yes, I know I haven't blogged in FOREVER, but my life has been kind of busy. I've been bouncing from one group to another, one party to another, and from one fight to another. I'm actually grateful for this. I love having many groups of friends. I have tons of people I can depend on and tons of people to talk to things about. One group I can have a blast with. The other, I could cry on their shoulders all night. One group I could be a dare devil. One group I could be a "goody-good angel." One group I can talk about sports all night. One group I can just be myself. Maybe this is a bad thing, maybe it's a good thing. I really do not know. Is it testing who I am? Is it a denial of self worth, personality, and life? I am unsure. Maybe I really don't know who I am. Maybe that's okay. Maybe its not. Will I ever find out? I know I said I hated this earlier, but things change. I guess it is just up to time to tell.